Another day...

...Another STRANGE dream. I think the medicine I am taking for my allergies must be doing this to me. Anyway...So I had this dream that I was with Tom in my old neighborhood at a party with his family for some friends of theirs. And then he wanted to show me this "really cool glass house" (which they all called that bc it had so many windows and so many delicate glass items inside). And I remembered it from a dream I had had months ago, which is sort of wierd. I was like "I have seen it before but didn't spend a lot of time inside, so ok." And we went down there with the lady who owned the house. (This house doesn't exist in my old neighborhood in reality.) Ok, so we went in and were looking at all the little glass things in there, which in reality Tom would never want to spend time looking at-it was vases and stuff...and a lot of ppl showed up from the party to join us in looking around. Soon, Tom and I were talking to this guy (the other owner of the glass house) about some rare artifacts he had, and these girls showed up- and they were the girls who had been connected to the house when I had had a dream about it months ago. (I'm telling you this dream is wierd.) Anyway so they see me and keep avoiding me because I remembered them and knew that they had lied about being related to the people to get into the house in my earlier dream so I was going to warn the lady who owned it to kick them out. ...then Fast-forward a few years...Tom and I look exactly the same, but now we are older and married and have kids, and ....this dream gets creepy. Think What Lies Beneath where you really like Harrison Ford and get all freaked out when you see him as a bad guy....that was a lot like this considering Tom wanted to MURDER ME. AUGH. that was AWFUL. ....Ok so here is what I am thinking....I was watching One Tree Hill last night and the dad is pretty much scum and has a lot of money and is hiding it from his family and wouldn't stop at murder or something to screw up their lives probably. I also talked to Tom right before I passed out on my bed because I was so tired. And I was on medicine and feeling a little strange when we talked and I was jumping from topic to topic like nobody's business. One of the topics was names for kids one day...which Tom humored me by listening for about 5 minutes before begging to change the subject again-haha. OK so maybe that would explain the "kids" who, Ironically, I didn't call by their names even once. And I was like...totally loaded- I mean, I lived in a MANSION. And I was SO freaked out bc I was paranoid that someone might be coming to kill me bc of Tom. Apparently he wanted the money I had come into more than me and attempted to take my life. And I didn't die. So he (and our kids, I guess bc I was alone) was moved out and I had security cameras/alarms/etc all over my house- sort of like in Enough, when JLo has to prepare for her husband coming to attack her, just in case. Also, my dream kept alternating between it feeling like I was right there and me feeling like I was watching myself as a movie almost-like out of body stuff. So Tom and the kids were coming to visit me...he was driving a truck, and my house looked sort of like it was in Mansfield near the Park's house, yet in Oxford bc it was also near Step-Away-Stables where I used to take riding lessons. (In particular it just looked like it was next to my riding instructor, Leslie's house.) Ok, so they came and I was so sad because I still loved Tom and I just could NOT understand why he would do this ever at all. It was like I wasn't even mad, just hurt and confused. So he wanted to talk to me and to tell me he was so sorry and that he loved me and wanted me back. And I was like...."yeah so you can try to kill me again! It's not like we had a fight- you tried to KILL ME. Do you get that? I can't TRUST YOU now! Are you nuts? I don't even want to be alone with you right now!" (Now, I have no idea why he wasn't in jail, or why I let him back in my house for that matter. I must have been STUPID...I'm tellin' ya it's the medicine.) But the worst part is that I was like "yeah I just want him back, but I can't because he might kill me"...I actually almost took him up on the offer. Murderers shouldn't get second chances with their victims...it's like..."oh choking me to death didn't work? Well move back in and this time try smothering me in my sleep." RIGHT. ok so then Tom and the kids and I had to walk to see the "grandparents" at a family gathering and we had to go through this mountainous and ravine type area that had crocodiles....where that is in Covington, I don't know. Anyway so I was FREAKING OUT and Tom was smiling and I was like- he wants me to fall in and die. oh my gosh. So we made it, and at the party I start bawling to a friend because I was like..."he always was such a perfect boyfriend and then one day he just tries to kill me?! I mean what is that?! I still love him and he wants to KILL me! it isn't fair! why would he do that?" and then he wanted to talk to me so we went out to his truck and sat in it talked and I can't remember all that was said, but it was really sad. And I don't remember much more so I guess that is when I woke up. Anyway....these meds are messin' with my head.

Moving right along, UGA's Honors Day is today and all classes after 2 are cancelled, and my Biology teacher (11:15 am) decided to go on and cancel the lecture today also, which is awesome. Not so awesome is that around 12:20 I have to be in the CS Lab to take the lab final which stinks because it makes my "only class of the day" a 2+ hour final. whoop-dee-do. But after that I am coming back to the apartment to get Melissa, and we are going to go see a matinee of Alot Like Love. It looks so cute! =) I love having girls to go see chick flicks with.

Also, MXPX is going to have a new cd out called Panic on June 7th. I could pee my pants I am so excited. I absolutely L-O-V-E them. And you can listen to a couple of their songs from that album if you go to this website: http://www.myspace.com/mxpx. I like them both, but honestly, I didn't want to listen to the second one, Invitation to Understand, again because it made me so sad. It made me feel like I did a lot last year...I don't know- freshman year was just hard...really hard. But I don't wanna think about it bc things are so much better now and I don't wanna be brought down.

Oh, and in addition to the wonderful news about MXPX, we (me, Tom, Will, Ben-finally!, and maybe Travis) are all going to see Good Charlotte in concert in Atl on May 27th, and we are gonna be right in front of the stage again. I am SO PUMPED. I have only missed one of their Atl concerts, and hopefully they will play a lot of stuff this time that they played at the one I missed- it was the last one. Oh Gosh. I am so excited. (+10,000 pts to Tom for getting us the floor tix!)

My voice is almost back to normal today, which is pretty exciting. I used one of Mary Caroline's nebulizers yesterday, and it helped alot with my breathing. (Mary Caroline is the oldest daughter of the Armstrongs- the people I babysit for. I love them so much!) I think I might use it again before I go to take my cs lab final. It's sort of like an inhaler, but it fogs up and has this facemask thing that helps you get more of the medicine in your system. I like it better than an inhaler. And it doesn't taste nasty like and inhaler either which is a plus.

Ok I need to get ready for the day- it's sunny! Yay! It was raining yesterday and now it's pretty! I hope that holds up.
Later dudes,
Megs