I feel like I'm on that MTV show Boiling Points. Basically, (I don't even know if this show is on anymore) they would purposely harass someone to see how long they would take it. They would have a timer for the person, and it would be different amounts of time depending on what the harassment was. If the person could put up with it without cussing, leaving, yelling or some other thing like that, the person harassing them would reveal that they were on MTV and hand the harassed person $100 in cash. My life is harassing me, and I'm not getting paid for it. I know it could be worse, but this is my blog, so I can vent.
I have a very important Spanish project due (it was originally due the 26th...yeah, today), and it got pushed back one week. That sounds like a good thing. In my case it is. But, like everything, there are strings attached. My professor (did I mention he's also the advisor for the whole Spanish department? Yeah-pressure.) decided that this project is so important that he wanted us to have it count not only as the original percentage that the project was but also as our final. It's great not to have a final, especially after taking a grueling midterm with him, but this puts SUPER HUGE amounts of pressure on my project. I also have to discuss my project for 5-8 minutes in front of the class and write up a paper explaining how my project relates to the readings we did in class this semester. Total times crying tonight? Three. So far. Basically, for what I am doing, I need a lot of people to participate, so I started working on it weeks ago, trying to round up help. Then I got a lot of responses-lots of willing and helpful people. Then I sent them the questions I needed them to answer for me (8 simple, 30-seconds-per-answer-or-less-questions!!!) and people either don't get back to me or say they are no longer interested in helping out. Thanks a friggin lot. I need to mention that I have one friend and one stranger who have both already answered my questions, which is awesome. But no one else has, friends have even told me that they "just don't want to do it" and I am trying to remember that God is in control and that He will either get me the videos of these people answering my questions or He will give me another awesome project idea. I was really excited about this project; it has so much potential. I know no one has to participate in someone else's project, but there is no way I can do it without participation. Right now, I'm trying not to be nervous. If I do get this project done, I will explain more about it and put it or a link to it on here so that it can be seen.
I also have a Psych test on Friday, and I have a lot of reading to do for it, and I have to study the notes, and I really need to make about a 250 out of 100 on this. (I know it's impossible, that's the point.)
And then, the next week, I have one day of class, one day presenting and turning in the project, and one day taking my last cumulative final ever.....then I have to just wait and make sure I make at least a C in both classes, then I am DONE until Graduation, which is May 12th. SUPER OVERWHELMING.
In addition to all of the academic life stuff, I have a million things going on so that I can try to spend time with people before graduation. Senior Celebration for Gamma Phi was on Sunday, Monday was my last chapter ever + letters written by our parents read to us by our lil sis's, Tuesday I had class and got all my minor completion stuff turned in, today I worked at Bear Hollow then went to dinner with my Gamma Phi family then went to the ice cream party that was the reveal of our senior buddies (each freshman Gamma Phi Beta secretly gets a senior presents all year, and today we found out who they are-ps, mine is Jillian Farr, and she got me awesome presents), tomorrow I have class and studying and dinner with my pledge class, Friday I have an exam and then have to drive to Atlanta for Sarah's lingerie shower/bachelorette party and for Tom's fraternity's Broomball, Saturday Tom and I will be back in Athens for a dinner/shower at the Armstrong's house, and Sunday, I have GOT to get all of the videos so that I can put my project together. Then on Monday, I have my last day of class and pledge class dinner and senior willing, then Tuesday I have lunch with Melissa (and maybe Abbey, Lee, and Kyle) and dinner with my small group and more work on my project, then Wednesday I will study and finish my project, then Thursday the project+paper+presentation is due and that night I have dinner with Claire and our senior buddies, then Friday is my last exam. I am going into overdrive.
I still haven't heard back from Zoo Atlanta about this internship I applied for, and I'm fighting the fear that they won't want me. I know I am qualified for this position and that I would do a great job. I would work hard, and I would love it, even though it's nonstipened. I just need to get it first.
Everytime I look at all of that stuff, I feel like I am going to drown in everything I have going on, but then I try to concentrate on some of the verses I have been really leaning on lately...and I pray, but usually I do that after I panic, which is wrong.
I need prayers....PLEASE pray for my nerves and for God's will in this stuff I have going on and in the internship. And please pray that I will accept His will, no matter what it is.
Love,
Meghan
Psalm 16:11-- Thou wilt make known to me the path of life; in Thy presence is fulness of joy; in Thy right hand there are pleasures forever.Proverbs 19:21--Many are the plans of a man's heart, but the counsel of the Lord, it will stand.Luke 12:6-7--Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten by God. Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.Matthew 6:34-- Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
